Late night?

It's almost 1 am. I have to wake up at 2 am to check my sugar. Is this a thing with diabetics the late nights? Seems I fall asleep really late since the diagnoses. My grandfather has type 2 and he stays up late my uncle has the same and he does the same. I'm making a connection here. I really don't feel good hmm maybe I'll check my sugar 410 well crap. That makes since did 2 chocolate chip cookies really do that to me? Oh wait I had popcorn too and maybe almost an entire box of milk duds, oh and I didn't take and humalog just my nighttime lantus. Well yeah makes sense if I think of it that way. This is hard. I'm tired of feeling like a human pin cushion. The pharmacy gave me the wrong needles there a 1/2 in long instead of 5/16. Maybe it's in my head but I swear it hurts worse. I can't wait to be on the pump for the past 2 hours I've just been reading peoples blogs about them and looking at the different websites about them. Omnipod seems pretty cool. I still probably have about 3 or 4 months until I'm put on one. All the doctors keep talking  about the honeymoon period but it hasn't started yet. It would be nice if it could soon the headaches are starting to get pretty bad and to just be able to have a blizzard without having to worry about spiking would be nice. Oh well that's it for my rant for today it's a little scatterbrained but as of late so am I.

So here's me

My name is Meghan. I'm 16 and I have anxiety and type 1 diabetes. The diabetes is new last week actually. 

The anxiety not so much coming up on three years since I was diagnosed. I'm not in school I plan on getting 

my GED when I turn 17, I had a job but I got so sick last week I lost it. So for now I'm babysitting for my 

aunt most days and trying to study for the GED. I resent the anxiety to be honest my best friends are back in 

my hometown prom dress shopping and I'm here virtually friendless avoiding social situations and trying to 

manage my blood sugar . I think I resent myself more for letting it take over my life. Only lately have I 

realized though that if it hadn't all happened I would still be friends with a cold person who denied the 

existence of depression or anxiety. So to sum it up my day to day life is just trying to get by pull up a little self 

confidence to try and make some friends maybe find a boyfriend and learn how to manage both my diseases.